Attached, you will find a collection of 3 pictures that I literally just "snapped". I am kinda nauseated just thinking about the fact that I am going to post them on the internet. I know it's not necessary, but I figure I have to come to grips with what I really look like. For so many years, I have been "ok" with the way I look and feel. I have always been confident and held my head high, but I think I have had to get to this point, where I am finally not ok with this. It's just down right scary! I'm scared to teach my son the same habits and thoughts that have gotten me here. I'm afraid for him to be ashamed of me and I'm just flat afraid to not be here for him. I love my parents and feel like they did the best with what they knew, but I have to break this cycle of bad choices. When you know better, do better. I hope that this blog will be a place where you can come and not be afraid to laugh and cry and just be plain old mad. I also hope that you will be able to join me in 1 year to look back at these pictures and see a completely different person, inside and out. Please share with me your journey. It's so nice to not be alone. Although we all know we aren't, sometimes it's hard to talk about the obvious.
I wish we lived closer I would love to work out with you! I am also going to start my weight loss journey! Proud of your honesty and even more proud to call you my friend!
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you bethney! I plan to follow and be inspired! Congrats on your new found journey and I can't wait to cheer you on! I have always looked up to you for your confidence and determination...and even today, even though we aren't as close as we used to be, you still never cease to amaze me! I know you're gonna rock this 100%! Can't even put in words how happy I am for you! :)
ReplyDeleteMy dearest Vogue, I love you just the way you are. I will cheer you on during your journey and don't give up. There will be hard days but just remember the quality of life you will have. When I'm home I'll work out with you and support you. -Kisses
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thank you all so very much. I am so blessed to have such wonderful friends. you are all 3 beautiful women and moms! i hope to make you all proud...but as i am learning...i've gotta make ME proud too. Maddie...i miss you! you are a warrior girlfriend! love you. Carlina...you are my biggest fan..you are one strong mama..i think of you when i hear that song from Beyonce..."who run the WORLD?"...GIRLS!!! LOL..love you can't wait to see you and miss londie...kim...you make me want to be a better christian, friend, and mama..so blessed to know you and your lil mister. my cup runneth over.
ReplyDeleteYou have been my friend since the 1st day I met you and not once have I ever thought of you as my "fat" friend! I thought of you as my friend who has the most confidence, spunk, and beautiful personality of anyone I've ever met. Now that you are on this journey you will begin to see the things that me and everyone else around you has seen all along. You have this amazing way of capturing peoples hearts and souls, not just through your photography (which is AWESOME) but through your spirit. I am so thankful to be alongside you while you embark on this amazing journey, because believe me when I say...We are going to party like it's going out of style one year from now!!! "If you can imagine it, you can create it, If you dream it, you can become it"...Dream on B.
ReplyDeleteAmber dione...u always know what to say...u are my biggest cheerleader u know when I need u to hold me up and when to bring me back down to earth...so blessed to have u in my corner. Love u bunches
ReplyDeleteYay Yay Yay for you! I'm so glad you told me about your blog! M sent me the link. So pumped for you! :) www.sarandipityblog.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteThis is so awesome and you are so brave. I'm totally with you sista! Good luck!
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